From Barren to Blessed : Zhazha Esteban Gloria’s Testimony
Genesis 21:1 NIV (personalized)
Now the Lord was gracious to Allen and Zha-zha as he had said, and the Lord did for Allen and Zha-zha what he had promised.
Thank You Lord for Your SACRED TRUST given to us. Thank You for this gift of life… Continue to breathe life and may this child grow in wisdom, in stature and in favor with God and all men. We offer our firstborn to You and we lift Your Name up… Miracles do happen even in this present time as You did in the Bible.
As we look back and remember Your faithfulness, on how You have covered us under the shadow of Your wings… we can’t simply hide this story. It is not our story anymore but it is Jesus’ story working mightily in our lives.
June 9, 2012
I was diagnosed thru hysterogram that both of my fallopian tubes are blocked. Since I was advised to take only mefenamic acid and no anaesthesia was administered, I felt the excruciating pain. It can be described to be like “labor pains”. To those who have experienced it knew exactly how painful it is. But the result was even more painful. Because that means we will never have children, not even a child through natural means. The doctor told us that our only hope to have children is thru Invitro Fertilization, a procedure that will cost around 350T – 400T with only 20% chances of getting pregnant. Our hope to have children were all shattered. All seemed dark and hopeless. There were nights that I will simply cry, asking why we have to go through IVF. I was saddened by the fact that I will not be able to give Allen even a child. It seemed contradicting to what God’s word says,to what God has promised. We are thankful for our family and friends and ninongs and ninangs who have been so supportive. They battled with us and for us in prayers.
July 14, 2012
We were endorsed to an OB at St. Lukes but the Lord led us to Dra. Jing Fernandez instead. She discussed with us not only about IVF, but everything we need and wanted to know in getting pregnant. We were asked to prepare for that huge amount around 450T – 500T if we want to pursue IVF. But she advised that I go through ultrasound first. So I did. It didn’t frighten me since this is not my first time to go through ultrasound. This ultrasound took longer than the usual to find out what might be the cause of the tubal blockage, if there are myoma big enough to cause the tubal blockage. Results can be seen online so we left the hospital after the procedure and checked the result as we are on our way home. The result showed a myoma about 1.2 x 1.2 x 0.9 cm. My heart was filled with sadness again. It seemed that the more the tests we do the more problems arises.
However, Dra. Jing said that there’s nothing to worry about as it is just a small myoma. We went back to her after a month. We were advised that we deal with the myoma first even if it could not be the cause of the tubal blockage. The myoma is too small and was far from the fallopian tubes to be the cause of the blockage. I was given injectable meds (leuprolex), a shot once a month for 2-3 months. After the 2nd month, we repeated the ultrasound to check if the myoma went smaller if not gone. The myoma was reduced to 0.02 x 1.00 x 0.84cm.
August 31, 2012.
We dared to hope in our Lord Jesus Christ that He will open my fallopian tubes and that He will give us sons and daughters. We prayed about it and trust in the Lord for His power and might and grace. With the help of our prayer warriors (thanks to my mom, my brother manny and his wife rita, to our ninong sonny and ninang ruth, ninong rey and ninang gina, our dear friends diana and pat, grace, to joyce and neri and to many unnamed intercessors for they battled with us through prayers, their prayers strengthened our faith in Jesus Christ even more).
October 15, 2012
We continued with the last shot in October. We were advised to return in November and have the hysterogram repeated.
We prayed that we don’t have to go through IVF. That whatever amount we are able to save will be given to HIS ministry instead. But God cleared our motives in giving him the money. One time, God asked me “What is your motive in giving ME money? Are you trying to bribe me?” To which, I answered, “Of course not Lord, for everything we have has come from You. We can never outgive You. We are giving it to You out of gratitude for the miracles that You will be doing. We can never ever repay You for Your love and grace.”
With faith in our hearts, that Jesus who has given us His life on the cross for us to have a life and the fullness of it, we carried on. We just felt in our hearts, He is at work and our miracles is on its way. God impressed in our hearts that we will not go through IVF, that God already healed me, and the repeat hysterogram will just be a proof of His healing touch.
November 15, 2012.
The Lord was so comforting that day. There are so many promises from His word while I was doing my quiet time. He told me that He is with me. That there will be boys and girls playing in the streets. So many promises. I couldn’t help but cry.
The repeat hysterogram is with anaesthesia this time, so that I will not feel the pain. The last thing I knew was saying “Lord, bahala ka na po. Let Your will be done.” I woke up in the recovery room. I asked Allen around 5 times or more about the result. The first time I asked him, he answered saying “Ok na ang baby, nasa nursery na.” The I slept again. The 2nd time, I remembered, Allen said, “OK NA. Parehong clear ang tubes.” I slept again because of the effect of the anaesthesia. The 3rd time, I asked him again and I told him to send text messages to all of our family and friends and churchmates to thank them for their prayers. But I still asked my OB’s secretary the result, to which she answered,”Ok na ma’am.. cleared ang fallopian tubes nyo at sandaling sandali lang, pwede na nga pong alang anaesthesia eh.”
Indeed, Jesus is a miracle-working God. Praise Him for His goodness!
January 2, 2013
I got my monthly period back. The effect of Leuprolex will cause menstruation to stop (pseudo menopausal). I was advised to take femara to induce egg production.
January 14, 2013
I went back to the hospital and have the ultrasound to check if there were eggs that are ready for maturity. Praise God because there’s a matured egg on my left ovary. It was then induced for ovulation. My OB told me that if after 2weeks my period will not come, then I maybe pregnant.
February 7, 2013.
I am supposed to have my period on February 1, 2013,but it did not come. I asked Allen if I should take the pregnancy test, to which he answered, “yes”. Before I begin with the test, I prayed that this test will complete the miracle that God ha started doing in my life. Double lines appeared! IT’S POSITIVE!
February 9, 2013
Our 1st pregnancy check-up. Dra. Jing told us that we still need to wait for another week to confirm the pregnancy thru ultrasound. The positive pregnancy test will just give us a possible pregnancy, but the ultrasound will give result if it is intrauterine pregnancy (meaning it is in the right place).
February 16, 2013
We are the 1st in line for the ultrasound. Our baby is at the right place, yolk sac measuring 0.34cm and with a heartbeat of 131bpm. Our baby is such a tiny creature with what it seemed a little ball on its side.
Luke 1:36 (personalized)
She who was said to be barren is in her 6th week of pregnancy! To God be the glory!
God might have introduced me to all the barren women of the Bible from Sarah, Rebekkah, the mother of Rachel, to Minoah’s wife (Samson’s mother), Hannah of the old testament to Elizabeth of the new testament… but all of them were able to have a child or children, for nothing is impossible with God! God is in the business of doing miracles then and He is still in the same business!
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY! Thank You for the UNUSUAL FAVOR! To Jesus our Lord and Savior, THE GIVER OF A NEW HOPE AND A BRIGHTER TOMORROW, who can do more than we can ask, think or imagine, to Him who is faithful to complete what He has started… BE THE HONOR AND GLORY BOTH NOW AND FOREVERMORE!
TO JESUS ALL OUR BEST! GOD DID IT AND HE WILL DO MORE!